Well it appears that my MS has come out of remission otherwise known as "an episode". These can last two to three months and at this time all I can do is pray that it goes back into remission soon as not sure that I can deal with this crap. Dealing with it on a day to day basis and knowing that at some point in my life it will get worse is okay so to speak. However these times when this happens is really hard and makes me struggle. The fatigue, depression, muscle spasms, shakes and all around feeling like crap is tough when trying to do things daily with the girls. It appears that the time has come that I need to sit down and explain this to them but am struggling with that decision as it is not something that I really want them to have to deal with however perhaps it will help them understand why I can not do all that I want with them at times. I am so struggling with this at this time and can not seem to find the right path. Of course the heat really affects me when I am out of remission and at this time in NE it is very humid and hot so that does not help. I did not start this blog to complain or play the whoa is me about my life and issues but am hopeing that put these thigns in writing may help me find the correct path to go and relieve some of the stress so that I can function daily. I only pray that I can be the parent that my girls deserve.
On another note I finally made a deciaion to star to do something for me now and again and am going to the country music festival this saturday with my sister and a friend of hers. I pray that I have the stamina to enjoy it as I am so excited I feel like a kid.
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